Driving the God bus

I was talking to my dearest friend Becky. We were discussing how difficult it is for each of us to give our will over entirely to the Lord. We try, and I suppose that for me it can be a lack of complete faith along with control issues. Becky said; “You drive the God bus; you surrender your will to Him as long as you can drive”. She knows me too well!

When I went on-line to check the cost of airline tickets and saw the incredible increase in ticket prices since last November, I began to feel panic. Would it take all of the money we had so carefully saved and collected from donations just to get to Estonia? What if GOA said they could not help us, what if, what if; my stomach lurched, and I felt ill. So I closed my eyes, exhaled (was I holding my breath again?) and knew there was nothing else to do but pray and to let go of the steering wheel and let God steer. I went to bed after praying and woke up feeling much better.

Later I opened my email and saw PayPal notices from four friends and my heart leapt for joy! Debra, Kathy L, Susan and Kathy S, once again you have shown that generosity is in abundance in each of you. You answered my prayers, and you have done so before.

I am an emotional person (OK, no eye rolling out there) and I get happy as easily as I cry, and my favorite emotion some days is worry. I am a Mom, I worry about my kids, and I worry about how much more food, gas, and everything else seems to be. Therefore, I do not expect that people have a lot of extra income for incidentals and certainly not for raffles and donations. Yet these four women have given donations not once, twice or even three times, but more than this and each do have their own very important reasons for saving their money. This is what makes what they have done to help us get Kara, and now Amanda home even more amazing. Thank you, all of you, for all you have done for our family.